last night i was talking with my good friend, sara, and she told me how she really wants to go to london in march. she asked if i would go, and inside i am like totally!! but in my head im like already coming up with a million and one excuses why i shouldn't...regardless, i told her YES! i honestly want to go. it sounds awesome. i really, really hope this works. i think she would be an awesome travel mate as well.


christmas is around the corner, and i still haven't decided if im going to skip it or not. haha, i know that sounds lame, but financially, things are tough so i keep going back and forth. i cant skip family, and dustin and i are just splitting our mini trip to san fran. so that just leaves my friends. so we will see i guess.

i miss: playing music. writing music. shows. man, i swear i had more motivation to do such things in high school. why can't i be 16 again? eh, i take that back. i dont want to be. hah, i just wish i had that same drive.


highlight of the week: i bought an itouch :]

so i usually start off by saying "it's been so long since i have updated, i won't let that happen again" - i won't say that, because the truth is i probably won't stay on top of it this time around either.

with  that being said...
it should be interesting to see who actually still has these things, but if anything it is always nice to write out your thoughts, even if it is for an empty audience.

an update-

i still live in fullerton.
i have been at cpk in brea for over a year.
i have been with this amazing man, dustin, for 17 months & i love him :]
i have dropped out of school way too many times to count, but i am going back this spring...for good. say goodbye to the next 5 or 6 years of my life for sure haha,
i have an amazing community of friends, whom i love so dearly.
i have grown up alot and have learned some neat things along the way.
i did not vote for obama.

there you go!


i really want to travel. man, i hate that i haven't really gone anywhere, but i know my time will come. we are planning a winter yosemite trip at  the end of december. so far it's going to be me, dustin, and his cousin, travis. that should be exciting, i have never been there.
then at the end of january, dustin and i are driving to san francisco. i am SO happy. it will be our first trip together by ourselves. and he has never been there, so ill be his little tour guide :]



so if you are reading this, tell me how you are! i admit, i do miss this.

take care.
 

let's try it this way... [sorry im not computer savvy...]

compassion- all spice plant/flower:

Kindness- elderberry


humility- lily of the valley


gentleness - pink rose [or daisy]


patience- orchid


forgiveness- white tulip



wow, im so sorry this has taken forever!!! just go ahead and message me back through myspace :]
thanks turbo

-brenda abel

from this site. haha. obviously. but i was browsing, and i felt like updating!
life is grand. it really is. this summer has been nice, but too hot. haha. i have been spending alot of time with my students and that is my favorite, and my best friend rebekah. well, i would like to spend more time with her, but she is the busiest bumble bee i know! and then there is this one boy :] :] his name is dustin. and my heart likes him mucho mucho!
you can ask me your questions if you'd like.

im looking forward to : summer camp [aug 5-11], a NEW job (hopefully CPK!), becoming financially stable oh man, and somewhat school. but im pretty hesitant in that last one. i really want to get through college, it just sorta sucks haha. to say the least. im such a procrastinator too, i have yet to do my FAFSA or registration... ill get to it though.

ok, im gonna go now. by by.

yes, i'm still alive.

i smile everyday now.

today i woke up to a great texting conversation. really, it made me smile for hours. i have not felt this happy in a long time. it feels really amazing, just to have a smile on my face and in my heart, i love it. and i loved that other people noticed :) anywho. im happy so i thought i would make a journal entry to telll you guys that.

last night i was in good ol' lakewood for omega death fest. it was such a good night. two of my great friends bands played and played SO well [the greenery & the messenger]

it was also a costume thing so i went as 'the greenery' haha, like i was dressed in all green, dude even green hair and contacts haha. anywho, i had fake leaves hot glued all over my tights and shirt it was sweeeeeet. it was a good good good night.

side note: rebekah, im sorry for leaving you in the cold. forgive me? idea: we should take "your blankey" around wherever we go haha.

i love my life in this moment, and that is ALL that matters.

Hosea 6:1

"Come, let us return to the LORD;
 for HE has torn us, that HE may heal us; 
HE has struck us down, and HE will bind us up."

I don't remember the last time my life was this hard.
probably about 7 years ago.
i need help.
i need friends.
and good friends at that.
this past weekend was not good.
i learned a lot about my friends and about myself.
somethings i wish didnt happen. but they did.
nevertheless, im where i am right now, for a purpose.
and i trust God will pull me through,
but it is so hard doing this without a strong support system around you.
its me and its God.
thats all ive got.

get this: i got TWO tickets within 17 hours...
TWO!

i want to move back to long beach where you don't get pulled over by cops for stupid things, because they have better things to do...stupid fullerton cops.

ps- im really poor, and my insurance is already hecka expensive [due to my accident of hitting cynthia siu] and i cant go to traffic school because ive already gone within the last 18 months. so both tickets i have to pay for, and both will go on my record. which all in all means, my insurance will sky rocket.

ps #2- i make 7 dollars an hour.

yeah. life is kicking me in the face right now. and it hurts.

prayers needed. thank you.

-brenda

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